Mundane Nothings

Seriously. That sinking feeling that numbs the entire lot of your five senses. Sudden bout of inexplicable breathlessness. I'm really afraid. If I fail, its really the end. Like i need to do this all over again, for another half of a year. Dear god, please don't let me fail. Please... Even an ice cream couldn't help me regain my footing. Footing? I don't like that word. Reminds me too much of measurements. Anyways, till the results come out, I'm gonna pray my heart out that the day my scripts are being marked, the lady is in good, high and generous spirit. I hope she accidentally spills coffee onto my script and it smudged the essence of my thrashy answers and thereafter she felt so darn bad, she gave me a passing grade. Ta daaaa.... Now that doesn't sound too bad at all. Suddenly, those ominous dark clouds have been blown away! In the mean time, lemme just think about the coming bbq. Well, while i'm at it, allow me to just list some things that we should ge...

My first paper was a blow to my ego. My journey home was marred by a stubborn image of a certain part of the male anatomy, justifying their emotions. An uncircumcised dick looks angry. A circumcised dick looks happy. Yes yes, if you say so. I'm letting randomness take charge for now. It smells better when they do.

I've been sleeping too much. I've been eating too much. I've been watching tv too much. I've been studying too little. Talk about impeccable balance. Don't fault me man. With notes as barren as hers, its hard to want to study. Bleagh . Her notes are like the drones of a shaman lulling me to bed. Its blatant to the point of being hypnotic man! Buggeration . And everything else always appear more appealing at times like these... exams. The sun looks extra good today, music played on the radio these days are more to my liking than ever, there are suddenly an influx of cute boys sashaying around that i just wanna sit at macs and ogle at them. Yes boys. Balls. I think this is just prophetic of my pathetic, lonely, future, the old maid in me is already surfacing. Be forewarned. I know it will pass, sooner or later, but with dire consequences. I can't afford to fail. Not now. It's too late to fail harmlessly. I wanna be free and happy and carefree again. Just anot...

OH my god! So its true, David Villa is finally heading to arsenal sometime soon! Muahahah ! I'm now convinced, arsene wenger listens to me. ;) Now you need to buy Joaquin Sanchez! WHy ? well coz he's hot, and I've always told the world how good Villa and sanchez work and LOOK together. SO please, please buy him over. :) Besides, the english weather's gonna make them look even hotter. Excited now. Potential gunner...Ole! I wasn't so a moment ago. Haiz , the wonders of a few divine beings. There is really something insanely fascinating with watching hours of gay kissing scenes. By gay, i mean two men. More so after knowing that those scenes were being cut out of the episodes there were aired on our local channels. Blearhahah ! At first, I felt as though I've been mercilessly robbed. But, half an hour into the whole search and load routine through youtube , the robbing was nullified. Censorship couldn't take on the world wide web! No match brudder . So, g...

Ahh , no sense of guilt whatsoever. My latest korean craze brings me to a new dimension of korean hawtness . Grrr . I present to you ladies and gentlemen, Yoo Geon ! Ah po po po ! Just staring at him breaks my heart. Why oh why am i stuck here, in a tiny land thats perpetually forced to swell itself beyond the land's capacity and while at it, inconveniently filled with the least succulent species of men? Devoid of any divine specimens of nature that could and should potentially peak my libido. Why!!!! AArrhhh ! He's that glowing thing on the left. For real! Its like arrows straight to the core of my heart and brains as well. Bleah . I can't study now. Not tomorrow either, I need fulfill my sudden urge to watch this divine being in action, maybe even slow motion. *hyper-ventilating* Sculptured face, bleah ! Its like made by the hands of god. Dearest Santa, remember the many years of frantic letters filled with my many wants that have yet to be fulfilled. I'm here t...

My dad is reading about Orange Juice, Aloud. My mum, is talking about coffee...again, aloud. They have been greatly influenced by the sudden influx of CHINA- migrants that are surfacing in Pasir Ris . You know how these mainland people speak right, all loud and muffled and incoherent. Yup, they, as in my Parents, have been deriving GREAT pleasure from merely attempting to emulate those incoherent LOUD sounds. Its like, " Agiiisshh ! Bah sheeeer gah .. DOhhK !! Doshee bueakkK !" And they do that, taking turns like they actually are communicating something that only they can understand. They do it at the dinner table, in the bus, at the supermarket, in the lift and everytime a china-man walks past. At first it was like, stomach- explodingly hilarious, but after 50 odd of such gibberish conversation, it gradually marched to the point of freakishness. What do i DO??

Its been a while. We've had presentations, late nostalgic lectures and cohort photo taking, that didn't seem very exciting. It wasn't even close to those jolts of excitement I would feel during my pri/sec/jc photo takings. Bluek. The later part of it was fun though. Anyways, blame it on dayah's morning, melancholic message man, but i'm feeling a tad of sadness too. *sniffs* Four years is a long time and It's coming to a close. I'm NOT gonna dwell on that just yet. Coz i know for sure, tears are gonna be shed, knowing how mushy i can get. So here's a little contemplation of my ineptness for the construction industry. The notion of wanting to not be part of this industry surfaced after the first year of studies. It finally occurred to me that the construction industry is not what I am cut out for. Reasons: I ’ m not money driven. This is perhaps due to my fundamental upbringing. The search for happiness supersedes the search for money. That i...

Don't fault me for being arrogant! What a beautiful mess i've been. The silence at home is deafening, but im starting to get really used to it. I could watch hours of korean drama and no one would care. I love that! Ahhh, Oh Ji oh! U hot hot lad. Accidental free-loader. Its a relatively new term that i found quite recently. Something I never was anywhere close to in the past years. This last semester is filled with trying times. Bleargh. It'll pass, i'm sure it will. Baxia!